Wish I was too dead to cry

A self affliction fades

Stones to throw at my creator

Masochist to which I cater



You don't need to bother

I don't need to be

I'll keep slipping farther

But once I hold on

I won't let go 'till it bleeds



Wish I was too dead to care

If indeed I cared at all

Never had a voice to protest

So you fed me shit to digest



I wish I had a reason

My flaws are open season

For this I gave up trying

One good time deserves my dying



You don't need to bother

I don't need to be

I'll keep slipping farther

But once I hold on

I won't let go 'till it bleeds



Wish I'd died instead of lived

A zombie hides my face

Shelf forgotten with it's memories

Diaries left with cryptic entries



And you don't need to bother

I don't need to be

I'll keep slipping farther

But once I hold on

I won't let go 'till it bleeds



You don't need to bother

I don't need to be, yeah

I'll keep slipping farther

But once I hold on, once I hold on

I'll never live down my disease